The Spring Break that changed me forever...

Well, Spring Break is over...boooooooooo, but I'll tell you one thing, this was the Spring Break that broke me, and changed me. I didn't go far far away, or went to the beach, nothing like that. I spent 3 days at a Camp Meeting in Plainview, TX. They are a blessed church. Right when me and Jess stepped look in that place, we felt welcomed. People came up and talked to us, made us feel accepted. When it came to the serves and sessions, wow...God really showed His power every single night, but one night...it was so heavy on me. So Heavy, I couldn't speak or even stand up. Friday night was when God really tugged at my heart, and made me realize that enough is enough. I've been a youth leader for about 3 years now. I only held the title...sad to say. I truly believe that I could of done so much within those 3 years, but I didn't. I wasted 3 years. If I would of done my job right, Lord knows how things would of been, but God is a God of second chances. Friday night, we gave me that second chance. I know deep down inside my heart, that God has called me in the ministry. I gave total control of my life that night, I am no longer a servant to the world, but to my authorities and God. Where ever God wants me, I'll follow. It's not gonna be hard. Heh, I was thinking about that the other day right after I made that decision. I thought "Man...what did I get myself into?" but I thought about it, and if nobody is gonna go, if nobody is gonna stand up, I'll do it. Friday night all I could think about was my youth group and how it's slowly falling apart. They are the generation of today. There's dying youth out there, that need hope, that need love and the only person that has that is Jesus. I want what the enemy has taken away from us, our youth. Not only our youth, but church in general. Friday night, God really showed me how passionate I was for youth, and how much I really love my youth. God has blessed me with many many musical talents, and people seem to get very attached to me for some odd reason. Does God want me in the music ministry? Or Youth? What if both? The only way I'll know, is through prayer. Talking to God, and Him listening. There's times where I gotta be still, and just wait. Where ever God wants me to go, I'll go. No matter where that is, He's gonna be there with me. Thank you Lord : ]