Letting go...

We've all had our worst times. Some of us might even had a bad past, maybe EVERYONE has...including me. I had a ruff past growing up. Many times I asked God why would He put me in situations at a young age. Seemed like the older I got, the more problems came. I discovered new things and phases growing up. Some were good, most were bad. It wasn't until the internet first came out. I picked it up very quickly only at the age of 10. I started doing and seeing things that a normal 10 year old isn't supposed to see. Ever since then, it ruined my well being. Jr. High and High School, I didn't have much friends like I talked about in my other blog. The only friends I had were my church buddies. I started seeing my family fall apart bit by bit. When I was old enough to date, guys would use me, and hurt me in different ways. I got further and further from God, and wondered why I was going through so much pain and hurt. I started to question His power. The frustration built up, anger would bubble up quick, discouragement was like a tornado. I started to question God's excistance...until God started showing me all kinds of things. God put me through so much hell, because He knew it would make me only stronger. God put me in situations to not only show me a lesson, but so I can gain much wisdom. I had to make a tough decision today. It was time to let go of my past COMPLETELY. Everything. Nothing left. That's the only way I can go on with my life. I can't just let some things go, because at any moment, they can come right back, and show it's face. I had to let it go, ALL OF IT. I'm a new person now. My future is decided.