Such a relief

God has been dealing with me for like the past month. First about letting go of my past, and learning to forgive people in my past, and always the ones that are in my life now. I've had a rough past, and it was hard letting go of it because sometimes I went to the past to comfort me. I would always question myself, and wonder why my relationship with God wasn't going anywhere. God confronted me, and I let go of my past. It is no longer apart of me. I knew if I kept running to the past, I would forget my future.
Sometimes forgiving someone can be hard. I know, trust me. I've had people backstab me and talk stuff about me and other things, but we gotta understand, if we don't learn to forgive and forget, that person/problem is ALWAYS gonna be in the back of our minds, and it's gonna bother us until we go to that person and tell them you forgive them, and hope they can forgive you as well. FORGET what they did, move on. As ya'll know, my best friend is Jessica. I cherish our friendship dearly. I cherish more than anything. My phone, computer, tv, xbox, drums, sometimes even cherish more than my parents. That's how much her friendship means to me. SHE means just as much. I love her with all my heart, but something bothered me and such anger and jealousy grew inside me. I felt that someone was trying to take my best friend away, and I felt like she didn't care if it happened. So much anger and frustration built up inside me, that I began to question our friendship. "Is she really my best friend?" "Does she care about us?" and so on. I even had anger towards that person, because I felt this person was trying to take my best friend away. Wednesday night, my youth pastor preached about Getting along with others, and somehow God lead him into forgiveness. I knew God was talking to me, and others as well. After service I HAD to talk to Jessica and tell her how I was feeling. I told her how I've been feeling...it was so hard, I started to cry. I asked her to forgive me, for all the bad thoughts I had in my mind. She forgave me. After telling her everything, I felt like a huge bus was off of my back. I'm back to normal. I'm not frustrated anymore, I'm not so easily angry. Guys, if you don't forgive and forget, that load is gonna be on you till you let it go. Learn to forgive others, if not, why should you be forgiven?