Inexperienced

For the past three years, I've been the youth leader at my church. To be honest, like the first few months went great, but then I just stopped. Why? Many reasons why...but the the main reason was because I had people tell me "You don't do nothing." That really puts your self esteem down...really. That's one reason. The other is, I felt like I had no idea what to do. I had alot of ideas but I didn't know how to bring them to past. I just didn't know! I prayed and prayed and I had my eyes and ears closed this whole time. Wasted 3 years...who knows, those 3 years could of been the best for our youth if I would of done my job.
Yesterday me and the rest of the youth leaders talked to our youth paster about selling V-day cakes and what not, then he started talking to us about doing our jobs as leaders. That was a conformation for me, probably to the other leaders as well. But the one thing that stuck out to me is, I was inexperienced. That lighted the bulb to my head. I'm not a bad leader, and if I keep telling myself that, I am gonna be a bad leader. It's a new year, it's not too late to start all over again, and this year it's not gonna be about me and the people I'm already close with, but rather it's about people who need a friendship, who need someone there to just listen to them when nobody else wants to. I just need to pray for wisdome and strength and I know I'll make it through.